Dogs, Chickens, and Me

I may have to give up on this blog.  Since my computer died I had to change all its identifying characteristics anyway, so most of the readers I had have no way to find it.  I will continue to try and revive Dogs, Chickens and Me, but my heart just isn't into this one......too many problems with my computer expertise.  I can't figure out how to get things from my dead computer, if it is even possible beyond what I've already done.  Knowing that I have lost most of my audience is discouraging and it's beginning to seem ridiculous to keep driving myself crazy trying to start all over again. I suppose I might change my mind, but I am so sick and discouraged about it right now that I can't keep torturing my 77 year old psyche.  Thank you so much to all my loyal followers over the years for giving me the illusion of having so many good friends.

 I'm still amazed and thrilled that I could get my blog back. I have yet to find my pictures, but at least I have the ones I posted here. My life is quite isolated since I haven't made any new friends except the few I meet in the elevator, but life rolls along. The friends I've had in Eastport are all gone, dead, or removed from my life for some reason or another.  I feel as if I am staying in someone else's house, which I am, adapting to a very different way of life.  No more gardening, no more mowing the lawn, no more tending chickens or parakeets.  No more bills to pay beyond the rent. I ride the elevator down three stories and push a button to unlock the door that goes  outside, where there is a parking lot that includes my little car in its own designated space.   I have a four digit code to open the door to the building, a locked mailbox in the hall.   So I spend the days wondering what to do......though I walk Elliot two or three times a da...

 I can not believe it but somehow my blog appeared here on my chromebook, complete with all its posts and pictures.  Since I don't know how it happened, I don't know if it will disappear again, but while I have it I am thrilled!!

   This is my first post after losing my precious blog that I kept for years, Dogs, Chickens, and Me.  I also lost hundreds of pictures taken over the years that accompanied those entries that chronicled my life.  I suppose no one will care but me and a few friends and relatives, but  I consider it a tragedy.  There's nothing I can do about it. I've been here at Boynton Manor for months now, and I know I live here, but it doesn't really feel like home.  It's like being in a nice hotel.  I am always aware that my surroundings are subject to observation and evaluation by people with power over me.  If I should scratch the paint or let the floor get dirty I feel subjected to judgment by authority.  It's true that I really have nothing to fear, but there is always an uncomfortable edge that goes with dependency on others. Meanwhile, life is easy here in many, many ways.  I had a heart attack just as I was moving.....brought on I'm sure ...